If Only

If Only

thinking of you,
as clouds dance above,
painting pictures,
white on blue,

if you were here
we would lose ourselves in imagination,
sharing thoughts, and love,
all signs of the world fading away,

wish I could touch you
trace the curve of your lips,
catching the heat
between your eyes and mine,

underneath this brilliant sky
we would blend together, perfect fit,
this puzzle of you and me only yet
undone by distance between

it grows late
shadows wander closer,
I put away my desires, my want of you,
for a someday which may never come.

because it's too beautiful not to post

I was watching Sex and the City, the movie, and there was this Love Letter written by Beethoven, called Immortal Beloved - i have to post it... it's too beautiful not to share it.

though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved,
now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us.

I can live only wholly with you or not at all. Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits.

Yes, unhappily it must be so. You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart. Never Never. Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves? And yet my life in V is now a wretched life. Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men. At my age I need a steady, quiet life. Can that be so in our connection?

My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day, therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once. Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose of life together. Be calm. Love me. Today. Yesterday. What tearful longings for you you. You. My life. My all. Farewell. Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.

I think the tears have finally stopped...

Invisible

invisible

i keep quiet,
allowing your words
to fill the silence,
too afraid to speak
and find i have nothing
valuable to say.

Loving You

Loving you

i have come to realize
love is not enough
love cannot erase the pain
you bury inside,
the wall you have hiding
who you are,
why you are,
the truth of you.
you fall and will not take my hand
wallowing instead in your depression
i miss your smile,
your laugh,
and it breaks my heart to see them gone.